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I am having my first audio erotica creator negative feelings funky funk.

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If we shouldn’t need validation, then why are we here with eachother? We have a biologic desire for community, a sexual desire for connection, and creative desire to share. To be naked with other people.

I create art for myself. But I share my art so others might be inspired, find representation, or appreciate it. To be part of the conversation with every creative before me. There is a vie for attention in sharing myself. So rejection is a part of expression!

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Maybe expectation is the root of my disappointment. But I’d still do it. It’s natural for me to be positive/to show up. I’d have to actively maintain expecting negativity. And I’d rob myself of excitement when positivity did show up.

I’m sensitive and creative. So I have to learn for myself. There’s not a lack of previously preparing myself, because that’s shame. I’m just alive on earth and no one has lived my experience expect for me. And I need to figure out the best way for me to share. I need encouragement, inspiration, and to feel desirable. Mostly internally.

Thank you for hanging out with me, any time you can. I appreciate it.

-Sssoft

August 8, 2025

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